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I'm starting to really hate myself as of late. Not enough to want to hurt myself or anything, just an almost constant shitty feeling like I can't do anything right sometimes. 

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:iconthatgrumpywriter:
ThatGrumpyWriter Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
On a weekly basis, I punch myself in the head until I feel woozy.

I think that the feeling that one's actions are never the right ones is based primarily on the knowledge that no matter the action, there is always a preferable alternative. One has two options when making a choice: think logically about the situation until one can surmise the proper course of action, or respond in a timely manner. Thus, it is impossible to make the best choice. This is because there is a time limit to each choice. Life is an open response test where you can't read the question and have three minutes as a time limit. The big problem is, the only time we can read the question is once we've handed in our papers and had them graded.
Memory is rigged against us. We selectively remember things. We remember the event, the choice, and the result, but we forget the stress, the constraints, and most of the details to boot. We remember what we did, but we forget that it was the best we could do. So we get trapped in our own hindsight and waste our time wondering what we could have done, and what we should have done. Could have and should have do not exist. There is but one universe, one timeline, that matters to you: yours. There is no diverging timeline for every choice you make for you. You are stuck here, and you have to deal with it. Do, then move on. The past is just as real as the future, which is only as real as you want it to be.
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:iconastral-spectrum-2018:
We all feel like that sometimes, but that doesn't mean its true. Your a great artist AND story writer might I add! You also come across as a good person to me. :aww:
Even if you don't think so, remember that there are people that love and care about you because a person like you is a part of their lives. 
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:iconmanpersonguy:
Manpersonguy Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you, that really means a lot to me. But the thing is that sometimes, it feels like the people that should love and care about me end up thinking of me as some sort of nuisance. Even when they try to tell me that's not the case it comes off back-handed and I end up feeling worse about myself.
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:iconastral-spectrum-2018:
I'm sure they love you no matter what, even when it doesn't seem like it. :hug:
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:iconmanpersonguy:
Manpersonguy Featured By Owner Mar 31, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks very much for the kind words, it honestly means quite a bit to me. Is there anything I can do for you in return?
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:iconastral-spectrum-2018:
Astral-Spectrum-2018 Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2017
Don't worry about repaying me. As long as you feel better I'm happy. :aww:
We could be friends if you want to though. :)
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:iconmanpersonguy:
Manpersonguy Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2017  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Sure, I'd like to be friends with you :)
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:iconastral-spectrum-2018:
Awesome! Just click watch on my profile. ^^
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:iconberryboivenoct:
BerryBoiVenoct Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2017
I feel yea bro.
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